Actually I have nothing to say, just noting that until a few moments ago when the system decided to allow me new privileges, I could not even reply to some threads anymore as I had made 3? Replies. Wonder if that restriction also put others off (as if you can’t respond, all you can do is edit a prior post to respond).
Hopefully you will take that as constructive feedback.
Fear not, no more sub threads (after all given foreigners have taken an in person interest in my work, I guess it impressed someone, and my predictive terrorist prevention work, well I needed a third eureka moment (after concept, and maths basis first two) and at this stage of my life, given it earns no money and all I take is ridicule, I will leave that to those in law enforcement who get paid to come up with novel ways to secure our planet better. I am certainly not going to spend my last few months to years stressing about such stuff. So you can all breathe easy.
However, I could use your help, and blame your system for literally awarding me posting privileges as I surf at 5am.
Having spent a few months now since my terminal diagnosis thinking about what else I want to do before the day comes, I can (still) honestly say that I am at peace with my fate, and that I have done everything I want or need to do in this life. Which is great. But it leaves me with a bit of a dilemma in that, what do I do now?
If I had money I would globe trot, but that isn’t going to happen, except via YouTube etc. So as I sit on my proverbial rocking chair, with hopefully a few more years to go, for the first time in decades I have nothing that I need to do, as I have done everything that I need to do.
So, my question for you folks, can you offer me, ideas please? Being broke and dealing on the pointy end with government austerity policies, (I care for my wife) they would have to be zero, or near zero, cost.
It would be nice to do something useful over the coming months to years (I have a statistical “up to 5 years” left, minus a few months, but an infection etc could turn that into days/weeks).
Routinely, for decades, I have run multiple projects simultaneously, learning, helping, growing, being a pain in the ass to make things better, learning new skills, pushing myself physically and mentally, etc. Now, I am content. I could happily just sit on my rocking chair until father time knocks, and then get on with my next life (I firmly believe in reincarnation). It just feels strange that I no longer have the desire to ‘break new ground and improve my own and human knowledge’.
Due to pain, which the doctors are currently dealing with and fathoming out (it seems to have several sources from what I can tell, one definitely being a reaction to an infusion medication that some experience as a side effect, and one doctor is wondering about a possible immune response reaction?) exercise is becoming more limited sadly. So running is for the moment out of the question. Walking can be painful enough at times (but I am still getting out there). Fortunately my tris, Marathons and IMuK attempt were all done at over 20 stone so pushing through pain is something I am used to. But no sports at the moment please.
But what the heck do you do when you are content (not bored), but would still like to do something valuable in your remaining time? When you are broke. I really have done everything I need to do, and the stuff I would like to do (global travel, help humanity move a step positively forwards, etc are pipe dreams).